I'm overwhelmed!!!

I have received comments - even some from emails because the G-mail accounts haven't been figured out yet - and it makes me feel so good that you all care enough to voice your opinions and encourage my blogging. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be because when you read something, even though you have heard it with your ears, reading it and reading it again, seems to sink in a little better. I have procrastinated all day writing the blog as you can see that it is almost 11:00 p.m. and I am just sitting down to type.

I had a hard time just getting out of bed today - it was after 10:30 a.m. before I could actually force myself to get up. To be honest, if I wasn't worried about my dog, Max, having to go outside to potty, I might still be laying in bed. Max has been a very calming part of my life. He is just the sweetest dog and loves to be held and petted and loves to kiss his mama!!!! I talk to him like he really understands what I am saying and he cuddles when I need it and wants to play when I want to play with him. He has really made a major difference in my life and I have only had him for 10 months today. He calms me when I feel a panic attack coming on and makes me laugh when I feel like crying. I just love him to death. He is such a good boy.

In case you don't know, Max is a pure-bred mini schnauzer and weighs about 14 pounds - not a tiny dog, but not a big dog and just the perfect size to sit in your lap and cuddle. When I decided I wanted another dog, I saw an ad on the groomer business that is next to the place where we get Chinese food and I wrote down the number and called and made an appointment to go see the puppies. The parents had a total of 5 puppies - 3 females and 2 males and there were only the two males left. I really had my heart set on a female dog, but the puppies looked so cute in the picture, I decided to go have a look. Kristen went with me. When the owner brought the puppies in the room, one was running all around and jumping on the furniture and there was little Max who walked over, sat down next to my feet and just looked up at me like he was saying "pick me, pick me." It was love at first sight. I think he has really helped me start to care more about myself and my state of mind because I put his needs before mine, BUT I want too. And yes he is a spoiled little dog and he loves his belly rubbed, but it makes me feel good to make him feel good. I don't think I could live without him!!!!

Anyway, thanks again for the comments and keep them coming. I feel strength and confidence when I read what you have to say and I love that you care enough to read what I write.