Yes, I know.....

Yes, it has been a long time since I have written anything and I have no real excuse. It is just hard to sit down and write what you are thinking and feeling. I am ashamed of myself for not taking the time to get things off my chest. Some days I feel like the world is going to fall down around me and I panic and just try to sleep the day away. Basically I think I am just hiding from my problems - I guess that is called denial - and think that tomorrow I will do what needs to be done and said - I guess that is called wishful thinking - but I just keep putting things off. I think I feel like if I don't want to think about it, no one would want to read about it, so I just don't do anything. So, I am going to try to blog something at least a couple of times a week from now on, but I don't want to make any promises I can't keep. So keep bugging me about it if I don't.